Wednesday, October 17, 2012


Teka has some type of conjunctivitis. I'm pretty concerned, but I'm handling it well. We are making an emergency trip to Cornell tomorrow.

Monday, July 2, 2012


While sitting here watching some anime, I've actually come to the realiztion on how much I have grown in the last few months and years.

These last two years have been quite eventful! I have gained a bit more confidence than I originally had, I attribute a good portion of that to Teka. She has definitely helped in that regard. She's also helped me be less shy and come out of my shell moreso than I had ever thought possible.

My little four legged soulmate! You have given me the opportunity to meet some really awesome people (and some really ignorant ones too), but we have educated and done great things! As you nap and listen to the tapping of my fingers on my kayboard and Chemical Pictures, I have to smile. You make me really happy. All your little quirks... When you walk in a circle, plop down and roll onto your back to get your belly rubbed, the way you protect me when people hug me by nudging them and giving them kisses. Because, you know that's very terrifying! The way you yip in your sleep. And that way you give people the stare down until they pet you.  The way you prance around so proudly with your toys and the cute snorts that go along with it or how when you already have one toy in your mouth and think you can fit another in there, but you can't.

Okay, okay... But seriously, I've gained a lot more confidence since I've gotten her. We have our yearly visit from the Guide Dog school coming up in July! I'm a little nervous, but really excited to meet the instructor! It should be a great learning experience for us.

Sunday, April 29, 2012

The Optimistic Pessimist

By nature, I'm a pessimist. I don't really look at the possibility of good outcomes. In fact, I automatically go to the worst possible outcome. However, perhaps the best possible outcome in the worst situations.

I have always been like this, for as long as I can remember, and it's not something I am proud of. I've heard "You are so strong." Except, I am only when it is absolutely necessary. I am the shoulder for friends and family to cry on. I am that pillar for everyone who needs me...except, when I feel that I need a crutch...there is nothing. I know that it's not true, but I have found myself going to the same few people to pull myself back up out of the hole that I have found myself in. And those that I would like to help give the same responses "Do it yourself." But how can you pull youself up if you're on unsteady ground?

I wish I knew the answer. I would love to be able to do that. Although, I seem to pull myself up and dust myself off regardless.. It's just getting harder.

Friday, March 9, 2012

YaMU SOrA (Sick Sky)

My physical health hasn't been the greatest this last week... It's actually quite annoying, but I'm dealing with it. As of right now, I am starting to feel a bit better, which is good. Hopefully, I will be able to keep it up!

This week is a very important week for me, too. Wednesday marked the one year anniversary of me going out to California to get my guide dog, and today marks the one year anniversary of receiving my guide dog and starting training with her. Happy one year, Teka!

It's actually really surprising how quickly this first year has flown by. Looking back, a lot has happened within one year. I wonder what will happen this year?

Sunday, January 1, 2012


Happy New Year, everyone!

It's officially 2012! Did you make it to midnight? I barely did.

Generally, I'm not one for New Years resolutions. I don't see a point to them and very seldomly stick to them if I do make any. The big one for most people is "lose weight," isn't it? I don't want to do that, but I would like to exercise more to stay in shape. I guess I should add "eating better" to that... Since I now own legit, good pots and pans and a toaster oven, I can cook.

But here is my list of things I'd like to accomplish in 2012:
+I'd like to learn more about as much as possible.
+Become a better person.
+Visit places I have never been (and actually take a vacation).
+Read more books.
+Try to do more public speaking events

Now I'd like to recap 2011 (I know, I'm going backwards here):
+Received my first Guide Dog.
+Met some really awesome people at Guide Dog school.
-Numerous eye surgeries and the complications that went with them.
-Work related issues due to numerous eye surgeries/complications.
+Bought a house.
-Family health issues.
+Selected as the 2012 Arline Philips Achievement Award winner.

All in all, 2011 seemed to have evened itself out.

Here's to a new year and hoping the world doesn't end (haha)!!